(With thanks to Little Texas) It was a beautiful ending to a beautiful day. They'd just celebrated their 30th anniversary. Thirty years... All their friends and family were there, including... Him. *Sure, I think about you now and then, But it's been a long, long time. I've got a good life now, I've moved on... So when you cross my mind... I try not to think about what might have been. Because that was then, And we have taken different roads. We can't go back again, There's no use giving in... And we'll never know what might have been...* I looked across the porch to where they were sitting. His head was bent toward hers, listening to the story she was telling. One hand idly stroked her arm; his eyes never left her face. You could tell that, for that instant, neither one of them knew there was anyone else around. After all these years, you'd think it wouldn't bother me any more. But it does. And I wish it was my hand stroking that skin... my eyes being looked so lovingly into. I wasn't prepared for the stab of jealousy, the Judas-prickle of tears. Dammit, why did I have to introduce them? She's getting up to mingle, now. He kisses her on the forehead, sends her off with a little love swat that brings a blush to her face. And after all these years, I still feel a twinge. I can feel the touch of that skin on my lips, and my hand unconsciously comes up to capture that tingle one more time. Shit. He's seen me. He's coming over. Why is my heart pounding? "Hey! I'm glad you decided to come. It wouldn't be the same without you." He wraps me in a bear hug... something that I didn't expect. Suddenly all the years melt away and I'm 20 again. "I couldn't stay away. I've missed you." He's blushing, and my traitorous hand wants to touch his cheek and feel the warmth of that blush again. "I've missed you, too. It's just not the same since the show. It's so hard to keep connected with anyone!" I nod silently. The talk moves on to what the rest of the guys are doing, what the kids are up to, the different things life has thrown at us... *We could sit and talk here all night long, About why things didn't last. Yes, they might be the best days we will ever know... We have to leave them in the past. I try not to think about what might have been, Because that was then, And we have taken different roads. We can't go back again, There's no use giving in, And we'll never know what might have been.* The conversation winds down. It's gotten darker, and both of us are hidden in the shadows. He looks up at me with those incredible eyes, and I feel time stop. *That same old look in your eyes, It's a beautiful night, I'm so tempted to stay. But too much time has gone by, We should both say goodbye And turn and walk away...* He reaches out and touches my hand. "I know how much this cost you to be here tonight. There have been times I've missed you so badly that I wanted to scream... But I love her, too. Even though I know things worked out better this way..." He's sucking on his cheek as he whispers, "Sometimes I wonder what might have been." Oh, if you only knew! *I'll try not to think about what might have been, Because that was then, And we have taken different roads... We can't go back again, There's no use giving in, And we'll never know what might have been... No, we'll never know what might have been...*